kelsey's "suffer shame for his name"

There has been a lot of discussion on Prop 8... the Yes's against the No's... the disagreeing openly with church authorities... the "hate?" First of all, its not that we hate anyone... and thats just the way it is. Someone who may not understand can call it hate, but they are ignorant in calling it that. Hate is a strong word. Like a church authority would say something in a hateful way or to discriminate against a group of people, UH no... But I like what my sister had to say on the matter. I want to follow the church authorities and stand for something. I want to be a better church member and have faith and stand for righteousness whether it "takes away a right (more like a privilege)" or not. Yes we live in America and we believe in the constitution... but at the same time, in more importance, we believe (as church members) in a higher power and what he says goes. End of discussion!

Kels wrote:


In 1978 Elder Neal A. Maxwell said, "Make no mistake about it, brothers and sisters, in the months and years ahead, events are likely to require each member to decide whether or not he will follow the First Presidency. Members will find it more difficult to halt longer between two opinions." This is certainly the case now. . However, I found that this talk, although it was given thirty years ago, is applicable to today in more than one way. It goes on to say..."President Marion G. Romney said, many years ago, that he had “never hesitated to follow the counsel of the Authorities of the Church even though it crossed my social, professional or political life”. This is a hard doctrine, but it is a particularly vital doctrine in a society which is becoming more wicked. In short, brothers and sisters, not being ashamed of the gospel of Jesus Christ includes not being ashamed of the prophets of Jesus Christ!""EVEN THOUGH IT CROSSED MY...POLITICAL LIFE." Nothing is more important, nor is anything more humbling, then putting away your political stance and following the apostles and prophets of the Lord. I've heard some say that in the church I'm sitting back and following "blindly." Following blindly in this case isn't being unaware of the political situation at hand, it's having blind faith. The prophets and apostles have not let us astray before. And nothing, (including, social, professional, or politcal beleifs) is worth clinging on to when they are counseling with you to do otherwise.Holding onto our religious beleifs is old-fashioned, untrendy, and worst of, some are associating it with being hateful and discrimatory. However, Elder Maxwell says on the subject, "If people, however, are not permitted to advocate, to assert, and to bring to bear, in every legitimate way, the opinions and views they hold which grow out of their religious convictions, what manner of men and women would we be?""If we let come into being a secular church which is shorn of traditional and divine values, where shall we go for inspiration in the crises of tomorrow? Can we appeal to the rightness of a specific regulation to sustain us in our hour of need? Will we be able to seek shelter under a First Amendment which by then may have been twisted to favor irreligion? Will we be able to rely for counterforce on value education aided in school systems which are increasingly secularized? And if our governments and schools were to fail us, would we be able to fall back upon and rely upon the institution of the family, when so many secular movements seek to shred it?"There we have it. We can ALWAYS fall back on our church leaders and the doctorine of the church. The First Ammendment and the constitution can be twisted to favor irreligion. Things that go against our beliefs are becoming ok in the worlds perspective. We will be prosecuted for sticking up for our beliefs. It IS worth it! Millions of dollars are going into the cause to protect marriage, why? Because marriage is THAT sacred, it is not a ridiculous cause to spend time and money on. As it says in Acts 5:41 We must "suffer shame for his name." Bring on the persecution and name calling, I know in my heart what is right. No amount of time, name calling, or finger pointing will change this. I'm grateful to have the guidance and revelation of modern day prophets and apostles, I know that they are men called of God. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has only true doctorine, and it is the only true church. Heavenly Father lives! Jesus atoned for my sins and is my savior! He is aware of the times and what is going on in my life. I know this! I say these things as a part of my testimony, and I say them in Jesus Christ name. Amen.

IS SHE NOT AWESOM!!!! And the quotes should be a comfort to those who are still struggling with the whole thing. Its right and its true. The Family: A Proclamation to the World READ IT. Pray about it. Understand it. I have a testimony of it.

he.is.jack.bower.

he sits and stares out the window. he is always waiting for those stupid rodents to walk by HIS window and prance around carelessy in HIS yard. how dare they. squirrels. stupid fluffy squirrels. they torment and tease. yet, he waits. he waits for them to walk by his window. he stares at me when he knows they are there. i walk to the door and open it, and out he dashes as fast as lightning. he never quite catches them but he surely gets the satisfaction of letting them know its HIS yard and no one elses. he reigns supreme over his territory. dont mess. after all, he. is. jack. BOWER.

my mind is not a safe place :D

i love halloween! i was tinkerbell... an alone tinkerbell, my capt. hook fell asleep on me!!! (brittan!)... but the next night i was a cat! on halloween you get to be what you want. how amusing. i could have been anything i wanted for a whole entire day. who thought of that anyway? so it was a good weekend and i cant wait til next year. which brings me tooooooooooo...

"friends" (that transition didn't really work did it?) i am soooo done with "friends" i need... friends. not "friends"... get the point? everyone knows what its like to get burned... but when you have about 15 marks to prove it... from one person... you should be done. so i wash my hands of it. the end.

so tomorrow will be scary, but it will be worth it. i am finally taking the steps necessary for c h a n g e... change is not always fun, its not always easy... but it happens. i am looking forward to it. i will be moving soon. out of texas. far far away. far away from my comfort zone and friends, "friends", people i love and know... familiar streets and faces... its time to grow up and have it hard and suffer and sacrafice to get what i want. i am excited!!!! bring it oooon!

wow... yall need should be glad you dont have my brain. i totally jump from topic to topic. sorry... i am sure my blogs are hard to follow. i'm pretty much on an emotional roller coaster.

not happy, for a moment.

If I needed a friend ever in my life, I need one right now... at this second... in front of me... giving me their undivided attention. A friend that wouldn't talk, butt in or give me their opinion. An invisible friend? No advice needed... a shoulder to sob on is more like it. Depressing, I know. My head is throbbing and my eyes are strained. Breathing hurts. Heart beat is numb. I never before have felt the way I do right now. Save me from this. Take me out of Texas and drop me in a place that will be worth my while.

one fine day

Yesterday was simply wonderful... I was at the park last night and as I looked up in the clear Texas sky, I saw a shooting star. It just made the moment I was in, that much sweeter :) Pretty much everything about yesterday was good. I got to go to breakfast with my Dad... and go to Target with Brad... and we attempted to make and decorate halloween sugar cookies, but that didn't really work out so well... but it was a good attempt!

I love fall.

. . . emotional girls should all wear mood rings. . .

So on my way to Idaho I bought a mood ring in the airport... REPIN' DFW... its a mystery to me what the colors mean because I failed to get the sheet that tells you... *dummy* It mainly stays this deep, mesmerizing shade of blue but at random I will look down and its amber, purple or emrald green. In Jackson Hole, WY it was pitch black! Around a certain someone its light blue. Today I woke up and it was a light aqua lookin' green... Yeah I get that it changes with body temp. and blah blah blah... but I think there is more to it than that. Call me dumb but I am serious. I mean come on, light aqua-ish green? What MOOD is that? Haha, I am making myself laugh, but really... And I like Relient K's song mood rings. (go listen!) Lately I have been emotional. Trying to figure your life out when you haven't a clue... can be very VERY emotional. So many changes and different turns lately. I am happy though. I wonder what color means happy. I really should find that sheet.... Ok, the rambling started so enough for now.

Challenge, get a mood ring. Its not gay :)

lyrics for *my* life

It's late at night... I'm sitting here at the computer, listening to awesome music, surrounded by all types of food and the necessary Dr. Pepper drank. (I felt like you needed to know how I do late and lonely nights) I wrote out some song lyrics that describe my mess of a life at the moment ;)

...Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away...

...This is not what I intended. I always swore to you I'd never fall apart. You always thought that I was stronger. I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start...

...Curl up in a ball and something Hanes. In bed I lay, with nothing but your T-Shirt on. Oh, with nothing but, your T-Shirt on...

...So quiet, another wasted night the television steels the conversation. Exhale, another waisted breathe again it goes unnoticed...

...Let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings so we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off. cause we'll know just what they're thinking .She's so pretty but she doesn't always act that way her moods out swinging on the swing set almost everyday She said to me that she's so happy it's depressing...

...You're right, I get itIt all makes sense, you're the perfect person. So right, so wrong. Let's all live in your imaginary life...

...Don't wait, Don't wait. The lights will flash and fade away. The days will pass you by. Don't wait, to lay your armor down...

... And someday I promise I'll be gone. And someday I might even sing this song to you. And I was crying alone tonight. And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you...

...You're not alone There is more to this I know You can make it out You will live to tell. She's just like him spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed and she's searching for no one (but herself) Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here And this time I think you'll know...